She closed her eyes and leaned her head forward, tears running down her face. Her forehead came to rest on his shoulder as her own shook lightly.

"I don't know how to find that balance. And I don't know if I could live with myself if people got hurt because I was too busy caring for myself," she said, softly. "All my training, everything... I want to help people. I want to protect them. I... I still have nightmares about those people the train made us leave behind. And then I wake up in a room full of strangers in a place that is still so strange and I'm alone. And I keep going over it in my head what it could have been attacking them. That wasn't a cloud from an explosion. Those were things. Creatures or something, coming after those people. Things and creatures can be reasoned with or even fought. But we weren't trusted enough to even let us try...."