[He drums his fingers on his knee, uncertainty a plague that seems to keep wedging its way into his heart ever since that night. Never before has he ever questioned any decision he has made or hesitated from anything. But since then he can't quite seem to regain that fearless side to himself. But perhaps by clearing out his mind and revealing the thoughts, it will save him.]

I have regrets and that is something I have never had before. I've never known guilt but ever since that night..and encountering someone from my past..I think I've been feeling these things in regards to him.

[And he wants to change..to show that person he can change and so it has caused his mind to have quite a bit of unrest as he tries to figure out how to do that.]