His voice stays soft, words spoken uncertainly. Should he tell him the truth of what he means? What he did, when some part of him knows he had no other choice. But it's still hard to deal with when he looks at himself, see that he's here, hundreds of thousands of other lives aren't.
It's not right. It's not fair. Is he supposed to just live with that?
And if Yuna knew what he did too. His eyes sting to think about her, his view kept low on Inigo as he tries to figure out what it is he wants. A part of him wants to speak, to reach out for help, but the rest of him doesn't want to make Inigo more sad. He doesn't want to see him keep crying, or be burdened any more than he has. Not after losing Gerome.
It just makes everything harder.
"I... There's a lot I need to make up for...but I don't know how." He goes quiet. "I thought...'least if I tried it, nobody else would have to, right?"
He offers it like a joke, a dumb test that isn't at all about vanishing, or dying. Because it's easier that way, isn't it? Easier, anyway, to acknowledge.
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His voice stays soft, words spoken uncertainly. Should he tell him the truth of what he means? What he did, when some part of him knows he had no other choice. But it's still hard to deal with when he looks at himself, see that he's here, hundreds of thousands of other lives aren't.
It's not right. It's not fair. Is he supposed to just live with that?
And if Yuna knew what he did too. His eyes sting to think about her, his view kept low on Inigo as he tries to figure out what it is he wants. A part of him wants to speak, to reach out for help, but the rest of him doesn't want to make Inigo more sad. He doesn't want to see him keep crying, or be burdened any more than he has. Not after losing Gerome.
It just makes everything harder.
"I... There's a lot I need to make up for...but I don't know how." He goes quiet. "I thought...'least if I tried it, nobody else would have to, right?"
He offers it like a joke, a dumb test that isn't at all about vanishing, or dying. Because it's easier that way, isn't it? Easier, anyway, to acknowledge.