"I.." He starts, his words momentarily trailing off, instead replaced with the murmurs of the crowds passing by in the distance. It's tempting to lie and just promise, but it'd feel wrong. It's not like Tidus doesn't know him well enough to know when he lies. If they're really this important to each other, then he owes Tidus the truth right now, even though it's harder than a lie.
"I'm.. trying." It's hard, when he's blamed himself so much with every waking minute. It's hard when Inigo knows that Reno's needling especially got to him since it reminded him so, so much of the mistakes he felt he made with Tidus. ".. I'm sorry, I really have been feeling bad for a while now, but I'll try to get better."
He lets out a breath, not pulling away, out of the hug. Instead he just keeps leaning against Tidus. It's more comfortable. Somehow it makes it feel easier to speak, especially when it's just the two of them.
"We can both try to get better. Together." Usually he'd hesitate more to compare his own mood or situation to Tidus's. But.. they both lost someone. Sure, Inigo thinks his own loss isn't as big or cutting as Tidus's, but they're both losses all the same. Especially if Gerome ends up walking away on the platform in.. what, only a week from now, maybe? Less? "Maybe we should both just.. get a little better at letting people close even when we feel so bad that we don't know what to do. I think we-- or.. well, I.. really hurt Taiki by shutting him out."
Which is something Inigo will have to make up for, but he can figure that out. He'll do it. Somehow.
"We can just quietly sit together or something for comfort next time, if nothing else.. Taiki's good at that, right? Us.. slightly less, I guess, but.. you know."
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"I'm.. trying." It's hard, when he's blamed himself so much with every waking minute. It's hard when Inigo knows that Reno's needling especially got to him since it reminded him so, so much of the mistakes he felt he made with Tidus. ".. I'm sorry, I really have been feeling bad for a while now, but I'll try to get better."
He lets out a breath, not pulling away, out of the hug. Instead he just keeps leaning against Tidus. It's more comfortable. Somehow it makes it feel easier to speak, especially when it's just the two of them.
"We can both try to get better. Together." Usually he'd hesitate more to compare his own mood or situation to Tidus's. But.. they both lost someone. Sure, Inigo thinks his own loss isn't as big or cutting as Tidus's, but they're both losses all the same. Especially if Gerome ends up walking away on the platform in.. what, only a week from now, maybe? Less? "Maybe we should both just.. get a little better at letting people close even when we feel so bad that we don't know what to do. I think we-- or.. well, I.. really hurt Taiki by shutting him out."
Which is something Inigo will have to make up for, but he can figure that out. He'll do it. Somehow.
"We can just quietly sit together or something for comfort next time, if nothing else.. Taiki's good at that, right? Us.. slightly less, I guess, but.. you know."