[Were he to answer that question, there's times he would say he was. He WAS stupid for abandoning everyone and pushing them away, but it was the only right choice at the time to keep them alive and safe. There had been no telling what Jin Guangshan would have done to the barely on its feet sect he loved-- and STILL loves-- at the time had he stayed.
His way of protecting them had, in all his guilt of doing so, been pushing them away from him and out of danger.]
Stupid of me to think we could be, not when Yu-furen was right about me! [The admittance kills him inside, knowing she was right all along, no matter how much he wanted her to be wrong.] But I DID protect you! By putting that target on myself and ONLY on myself, I kept you away from Sect Leader Jin's scheming against me! Shijie was-- you all got to live away from any attacks on Yunmeng.
[Ordinarily, Wuxian would not be tearing up, but with the stabbing words about turning his back on Yanli as well, he can't help it. Jiang Cheng was right and he hates that it's true and can't even bark back an insult.]
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His way of protecting them had, in all his guilt of doing so, been pushing them away from him and out of danger.]
Stupid of me to think we could be, not when Yu-furen was right about me! [The admittance kills him inside, knowing she was right all along, no matter how much he wanted her to be wrong.] But I DID protect you! By putting that target on myself and ONLY on myself, I kept you away from Sect Leader Jin's scheming against me! Shijie was-- you all got to live away from any attacks on Yunmeng.
[Ordinarily, Wuxian would not be tearing up, but with the stabbing words about turning his back on Yanli as well, he can't help it. Jiang Cheng was right and he hates that it's true and can't even bark back an insult.]