"Oh, I'd way rather be killed by a Phantom than a mimic." Anyway, not the point.
"He 'got out' into the middle of a situation with killer aliens everywhere, his own failsafe robot telling him to blow up the station and everyone on it, Alex gaslighting the shit out of him, survivors hunkered down in whatever corners they could find, a dying ex-girlfriend he couldn't even remember, and oh yeah, his corporate bastard father sent a guy with your kind of skillset in to kill everyone so they could write the whole station off as a loss." Beat. "And he did specify everyone. Morgan's family does not have a genetic predisposition towards being decent people."
He sighs heavily.
"And that's kind of where it breaks apart, a little bit. Because what I went through was a simulation based on Morgan's experiences, but it wasn't designed to just be like, a movie. Morgan saved ... Well, everyone it was possible to save, I think, bundled everyone on an overcrowded shuttle and escaped just before the reactor blew. I'm not that good - not at saving people, at thinking ahead, at whatever measures the whole simulation was set up to measure. No perfect scores here." Ghost shakes his head, closes his eyes briefly. "Some of that shit I'm not proud of."
Not like Morgan's any better - but when you're friends with someone you remember shooting in cold blood, because you just didn't really get it at the time, it weighs on you. "After the simulation, I woke up to... Well, a lot of discussion of my performance like I wasn't even there, and certainly wasn't a person yet in their eyes."
Would you let it live?
"The whole thing was set up to measure just how human I was - how much empathy I had, meaning 'is the alien a decent fucking person?' ...Good enough for them at the time, obviously. But they didn't really break the 'you're not actually Morgan' thing gently."
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"He 'got out' into the middle of a situation with killer aliens everywhere, his own failsafe robot telling him to blow up the station and everyone on it, Alex gaslighting the shit out of him, survivors hunkered down in whatever corners they could find, a dying ex-girlfriend he couldn't even remember, and oh yeah, his corporate bastard father sent a guy with your kind of skillset in to kill everyone so they could write the whole station off as a loss." Beat. "And he did specify everyone. Morgan's family does not have a genetic predisposition towards being decent people."
He sighs heavily.
"And that's kind of where it breaks apart, a little bit. Because what I went through was a simulation based on Morgan's experiences, but it wasn't designed to just be like, a movie. Morgan saved ... Well, everyone it was possible to save, I think, bundled everyone on an overcrowded shuttle and escaped just before the reactor blew. I'm not that good - not at saving people, at thinking ahead, at whatever measures the whole simulation was set up to measure. No perfect scores here." Ghost shakes his head, closes his eyes briefly. "Some of that shit I'm not proud of."
Not like Morgan's any better - but when you're friends with someone you remember shooting in cold blood, because you just didn't really get it at the time, it weighs on you. "After the simulation, I woke up to... Well, a lot of discussion of my performance like I wasn't even there, and certainly wasn't a person yet in their eyes."
Would you let it live?
"The whole thing was set up to measure just how human I was - how much empathy I had, meaning 'is the alien a decent fucking person?' ...Good enough for them at the time, obviously. But they didn't really break the 'you're not actually Morgan' thing gently."