Sayaka... Kyoko thinks -- that's probably the better option for Sayaka. That's part of the problem, isn't it? She doesn't know how to put words to most of these feelings. But, maybe, if she just put those feelings into the rock, then... There won't be any chance for any words to get in the way, for her to muddle up her meaning.
Kyoko nods, "Mm," confirmation. Yeah. That... She'll do that for Sayaka. She's decided now.
But her father...
Kyoko bites her lower lip and, after a long moment, decides... to try to put words to this. She's already cried on Yondu today after telling him about her family. What's one more hard, awkward thing?
"My father..." Still, even with her mind made up, she hesitates. "I never really told you what happened, huh. Maybe... Some day, I'll tell you everything." It feels like it's probably unfair, to tell someone else and not Mami. If anyone deserves to hear it, it's Mami. But she doesn't think she's up to going through it again. "But, my father... I think he really hated me, in the end."
And she has to pause after saying that, because -- She... She doesn't think she's actually said it out loud before. And it kind of chokes her up a little bit. She has to clear her throat to keep going.
"So I guess that's... part of why I'm stuck. I don't know... if he'd even want to hear anything I had to say, or know whatever I feel. You know? I don't want to..." Here, words fail her, and she falters again. "He already had a lot on his mind. I don't want... to add to that. One more thing, and from someone he hated." Even now, she doesn't want to burden him.
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Sayaka... Kyoko thinks -- that's probably the better option for Sayaka. That's part of the problem, isn't it? She doesn't know how to put words to most of these feelings. But, maybe, if she just put those feelings into the rock, then... There won't be any chance for any words to get in the way, for her to muddle up her meaning.
Kyoko nods, "Mm," confirmation. Yeah. That... She'll do that for Sayaka. She's decided now.
But her father...
Kyoko bites her lower lip and, after a long moment, decides... to try to put words to this. She's already cried on Yondu today after telling him about her family. What's one more hard, awkward thing?
"My father..." Still, even with her mind made up, she hesitates. "I never really told you what happened, huh. Maybe... Some day, I'll tell you everything." It feels like it's probably unfair, to tell someone else and not Mami. If anyone deserves to hear it, it's Mami. But she doesn't think she's up to going through it again. "But, my father... I think he really hated me, in the end."
And she has to pause after saying that, because -- She... She doesn't think she's actually said it out loud before. And it kind of chokes her up a little bit. She has to clear her throat to keep going.
"So I guess that's... part of why I'm stuck. I don't know... if he'd even want to hear anything I had to say, or know whatever I feel. You know? I don't want to..." Here, words fail her, and she falters again. "He already had a lot on his mind. I don't want... to add to that. One more thing, and from someone he hated." Even now, she doesn't want to burden him.