But you will never be lonely. You already know that.
Just as the chaos wants to draw her in, so does harmony keep her grounded, an anchor in the form of Loki's hand in her own. There is a rainbow of color inside her heart, bright and shining, but instead of a chaotic storm, its a gentle, pulsing wave. Ever present, and shines through the more she seeks to help others.
Fire gathers at her back, wings of flame, gentle, and warm, they don't burn anything, and her hand squeezes Loki's. "Help me," she says. Not a frightened plea, just for Loki to help her do what she thinks is right.
"You said I looked like her," she says to the entity. "And you changed the story. A caretaker in an orphanage. I wonder if that has to do with it, your loneliness. I know something like that was part of mine." And she shares it, years of loneliness. From family who only fulfilled obligation. Of a mentor who suffered her own burdens, unable to give the guidance to make friends. Of manipulating, controlling, domineering through magic and wit and underhanded tactics, as a unicorn, and as a human.
She had power. She had control. She was surrounded by people who admired and feared her. It was almost loud enough to drown out the screaming emptiness of her loneliness.
"I don't know. But....if I am like her....I think she would want better for you then this. A storm, an ocean, they're so loud, but all it is, is stagnation. And loneliness doesn't vanish with it. Because you can be surrounded and alone," Sunset said, her hand still on the tendril, still gentle.
"You're right, to be alone is to be doomed. But you're only doomed if you stop trying. I know its hard. Its so hard-" She would hurt everyone in front of her, destroy them all-
And then she was surrounded in color, a blinding light, and an all consuming warmth. What Twilight had accomplished in three days. She had torn apart all her machinations, she had healed broken hearts, she had given magic to five girls who had none before.
By being a friend.
"But its possible, with the right people. And then....you learn. You learn all the things about them, what makes them different, what makes them special, things that sometimes drive you mad, and make you love them more."
Moments, of love an annoyance of her friends. Learning surprising new things from Fluttershy's intensity while gaming, to Rainbow's books, to Twilight's quiet understanding. To celebrating a winter holiday with a family as her friends invite her to sleepover after sleepover once they learn she's on her own. To waking up on the Aurora with Loki worried over her, the efforts others made to save her enough of a bond to slam her memories back into her mind all at once.
"Taking people, dominating them, curating an existence, it isn't fixing your loneliness. Its just control. And if all you are is control, you will always be alone. You have to let people in...and there are people. If you can't join the train, if you can't let go of that pain, then be a safe haven. There are people who have lost so much. Who have nothing worth returning to. Who would love to help make a new world. But you have to let them choose."
"You could join the train, give each other a second chance. Or you can offer a second chance to others, you just have to let them in, let them choose, let them help. Let them be your friends instead of people you control," she said and she stared at the cyclone.
"My name is Sunset Shimmer. Some friends know me as Solar Flare. And I'd like to be your friend."
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But you will never be lonely. You already know that.
Just as the chaos wants to draw her in, so does harmony keep her grounded, an anchor in the form of Loki's hand in her own. There is a rainbow of color inside her heart, bright and shining, but instead of a chaotic storm, its a gentle, pulsing wave. Ever present, and shines through the more she seeks to help others.
Fire gathers at her back, wings of flame, gentle, and warm, they don't burn anything, and her hand squeezes Loki's. "Help me," she says. Not a frightened plea, just for Loki to help her do what she thinks is right.
"You said I looked like her," she says to the entity. "And you changed the story. A caretaker in an orphanage. I wonder if that has to do with it, your loneliness. I know something like that was part of mine."
And she shares it, years of loneliness. From family who only fulfilled obligation. Of a mentor who suffered her own burdens, unable to give the guidance to make friends. Of manipulating, controlling, domineering through magic and wit and underhanded tactics, as a unicorn, and as a human.
She had power. She had control. She was surrounded by people who admired and feared her. It was almost loud enough to drown out the screaming emptiness of her loneliness.
"I don't know. But....if I am like her....I think she would want better for you then this. A storm, an ocean, they're so loud, but all it is, is stagnation. And loneliness doesn't vanish with it. Because you can be surrounded and alone," Sunset said, her hand still on the tendril, still gentle.
"You're right, to be alone is to be doomed. But you're only doomed if you stop trying. I know its hard. Its so hard-"
She would hurt everyone in front of her, destroy them all-
And then she was surrounded in color, a blinding light, and an all consuming warmth. What Twilight had accomplished in three days. She had torn apart all her machinations, she had healed broken hearts, she had given magic to five girls who had none before.
By being a friend.
"But its possible, with the right people. And then....you learn. You learn all the things about them, what makes them different, what makes them special, things that sometimes drive you mad, and make you love them more."
Moments, of love an annoyance of her friends. Learning surprising new things from Fluttershy's intensity while gaming, to Rainbow's books, to Twilight's quiet understanding. To celebrating a winter holiday with a family as her friends invite her to sleepover after sleepover once they learn she's on her own. To waking up on the Aurora with Loki worried over her, the efforts others made to save her enough of a bond to slam her memories back into her mind all at once.
"Taking people, dominating them, curating an existence, it isn't fixing your loneliness. Its just control. And if all you are is control, you will always be alone. You have to let people in...and there are people. If you can't join the train, if you can't let go of that pain, then be a safe haven. There are people who have lost so much. Who have nothing worth returning to. Who would love to help make a new world. But you have to let them choose."
"You could join the train, give each other a second chance. Or you can offer a second chance to others, you just have to let them in, let them choose, let them help. Let them be your friends instead of people you control," she said and she stared at the cyclone.
"My name is Sunset Shimmer. Some friends know me as Solar Flare. And I'd like to be your friend."