Everyone else was better at emotions than she was, how to cope and how to deal with them. She had been a mess for ages after every one of her moments. And even now, she knows she's no better now than she was then.

She good naturedly rolls her eyes as he holds the door open with his foot of all things, but takes the offer either way. "I know it isn't and yet here I am, still living in it. When I know the past is so far behind me at this point." She knows no one she lost would want her living like this and yet she can't help but do so. It's almost pathetic, in a way. The strong matriarch of a clan, the first wife of a kage, and yet she continues to act like this. Pathetic.

"Neither am I. I know none of them would wish for me to live like this. But I cannot... help it, I suppose?" She probably could if given proper reason. "I know he in particular wouldn't want for me to be like this. To move on, to be happy. But how do you do that when it feels as if your entire heart was ripped out? It's certainly pathetic, I know that."