It's abruptly too much. If the feeling weren't of becoming one with something else, be it the darkness or night; if he didn't feel at the same time how the darkness wove into his qi; if this didn't abruptly smack against his bottom line, perhaps he'd keep it together better in this chaos.

Instead, his heart rate increases, his pupils are fully blown, and he does the opposite of work with Nysia, fighting against their feeling even as he summons more chaotic winds than he should and sends them slamming towards the god, the darkness still entangled with his energies, shouting, "F*ck!"