What is it that Esteban's searching for? It's Esteban that Tidus needs to focus on, but if it's a passenger, Tidus knows plenty, he can give a better angle for Esteban to direct himself in, when to know a person even by their presence, is plenty better than just knowing them by a faceless name.
But it's a them - a collective, not a singular that Esteban's reaching for. Confusion tickles through the link that they share, coming from Tidus. Who? in the sensation; slow for Tidus to piece together, and maybe, just when he gets it-- the void comes for Esteban.
It hits him, nearly as hard as it does Esteban; memories that have no personal connection to him, but his is the connection with Esteban, and so the pain and lost and the blame that comes from it all stabs at Tidus, a not-so-unfamiliar feeling. But his first reaction - his ability from the distance, from being Esteban's guide, his safety net - is to pull back. People that Esteban wants to find in the abyss of the void, but panic strikes Tidus, no no no no, not like this, another time, c'mon Esteban, we'll try later.
And he knows the pain of loss, he knows so desperately the desire to search, to find, to bring back to you those lost. Pleas with his heart that's filled with so many faces, all of those met in his time on the train, and more: Drizzt, his first roommate, the person who wanted to stay and help others; Sam, the man he didn't know too well, but he has a baby back home, and what's happened to him? What's happened to his kid? -- the mother of three ducks, Della Duck, the kids she's been away from for so long, who deserves to be home with her family.
And then there's Yuna, Yuna. Just the thought of her filled with love and longing, so much fear, everything he refuses to let go of but worries in the crevices of his mind, Can I find her? His heart linked to the very thought of her, this person he owes so much to.
Flashes, so quick, and Tidus pleas with their places in his heart as he takes Esteban's own loss, and tries to call him back to him with it. We'll look, not like this, we can't lose you, come back, come back.
It's not unlike the fear of nearly losing Inigo, that he might lose Esteban too wandering this way. They've both lost, but they'll support each other, they'll be pillars for one another, and they'll try, but not this way. Not today.
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But it's a them - a collective, not a singular that Esteban's reaching for. Confusion tickles through the link that they share, coming from Tidus. Who? in the sensation; slow for Tidus to piece together, and maybe, just when he gets it-- the void comes for Esteban.
It hits him, nearly as hard as it does Esteban; memories that have no personal connection to him, but his is the connection with Esteban, and so the pain and lost and the blame that comes from it all stabs at Tidus, a not-so-unfamiliar feeling. But his first reaction - his ability from the distance, from being Esteban's guide, his safety net - is to pull back. People that Esteban wants to find in the abyss of the void, but panic strikes Tidus, no no no no, not like this, another time, c'mon Esteban, we'll try later.
And he knows the pain of loss, he knows so desperately the desire to search, to find, to bring back to you those lost. Pleas with his heart that's filled with so many faces, all of those met in his time on the train, and more: Drizzt, his first roommate, the person who wanted to stay and help others; Sam, the man he didn't know too well, but he has a baby back home, and what's happened to him? What's happened to his kid? -- the mother of three ducks, Della Duck, the kids she's been away from for so long, who deserves to be home with her family.
And then there's Yuna, Yuna. Just the thought of her filled with love and longing, so much fear, everything he refuses to let go of but worries in the crevices of his mind, Can I find her? His heart linked to the very thought of her, this person he owes so much to.
Flashes, so quick, and Tidus pleas with their places in his heart as he takes Esteban's own loss, and tries to call him back to him with it. We'll look, not like this, we can't lose you, come back, come back.
It's not unlike the fear of nearly losing Inigo, that he might lose Esteban too wandering this way. They've both lost, but they'll support each other, they'll be pillars for one another, and they'll try, but not this way. Not today.