That was in someways worse, when even the grown ups didn't know what was happening or why things were being sad or bad.

"I did. Mister Xander's memory was scary but he explained it so then it wasn't so scary anymore."

It was still sad, that that had happened to Xander, but it wasn't a bad thing about Xander, or a reason to be scared of him. "I'd not seen my memory before, because it wasn't something I'd remembered before."