Devero hasn't had someone to take care of him since he got out of creche. Things had... maybe... been moving in that direction with Alejane, but then he'd gotten Ále's leg fucking shattered and of course his friend hadn't talked to him again after that, especially once he got discharged from the Guard.
So the way Koumyou tenderly washes the mess of Devero's grief and anger off of his face just makes him fall even more in love with the priest, really. He closes his eyes and tilts his head a little into Koumyou's ministrations.
The idea of using time for himself shouldn't seem as revolutionary as it does to someone who comes from his world, but Devero's been running from his own problems for years by just giving himself progressively more to do. Physical training, training in Babysitter, training recruits. Helping Chihyoon run the field testing side of things for Techstead's big equipment developments. Apprenticing with Morraine, learning engineering and design, taking over doing all the maintenance and upgrades on his exo... If he doesn't give himself time to think in a day, of course he won't think about how lonely and miserable he is.
Since coming to the train, it feels like all he's had is time to think. No wonder he's been such a wreck.
He opens his eyes again to meet Koumyou's. "Will... will you help me? Figure it out?" he asks. He already knows the answer, but he just... he needs to hear it.
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So the way Koumyou tenderly washes the mess of Devero's grief and anger off of his face just makes him fall even more in love with the priest, really. He closes his eyes and tilts his head a little into Koumyou's ministrations.
The idea of using time for himself shouldn't seem as revolutionary as it does to someone who comes from his world, but Devero's been running from his own problems for years by just giving himself progressively more to do. Physical training, training in Babysitter, training recruits. Helping Chihyoon run the field testing side of things for Techstead's big equipment developments. Apprenticing with Morraine, learning engineering and design, taking over doing all the maintenance and upgrades on his exo... If he doesn't give himself time to think in a day, of course he won't think about how lonely and miserable he is.
Since coming to the train, it feels like all he's had is time to think. No wonder he's been such a wreck.
He opens his eyes again to meet Koumyou's. "Will... will you help me? Figure it out?" he asks. He already knows the answer, but he just... he needs to hear it.