"Not always." He shakes his head, and stops when it just makes the lightheadedness worse. "The point of no return is different for everyone. It depends on how bad their injuries are and...how strong the healer is." There are a number of reasons this is bothering him, but that is the foremost one.
...wait. "But I'm not about to throw my life after someone who's already gone, if that's what you're worried about. I know better than that." He doesn't honestly know if that's what's on Thanatos's mind, but it's probably worth the reassurance.
He sighs and leans back a bit, nearly overbalances, and straightens up again. Thanatos doesn't get it, and he's honestly not sure how to explain it aside from being blunt. "That's not the point. I know I still have potions and my mana drive and field medicine, but unless it's for someone I can't heal, they'll never be what I turn to first. My magic is part of who I am, and I want it back." He knows there are other ways he can help; that doesn't change what he wants. How does Thanatos of all people not understand this?
But there's still another question Thanatos is insisting on, and he's not going to let up without an answer, is he. "Yes, I have the ingredients, but it's not going to help. It's for magic overuse. I tried it when we got back from Jinnjar, when I was exhausted from anchoring, and it didn't help." It had been worth testing, but at this point he knows.
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"Not always." He shakes his head, and stops when it just makes the lightheadedness worse. "The point of no return is different for everyone. It depends on how bad their injuries are and...how strong the healer is." There are a number of reasons this is bothering him, but that is the foremost one.
...wait. "But I'm not about to throw my life after someone who's already gone, if that's what you're worried about. I know better than that." He doesn't honestly know if that's what's on Thanatos's mind, but it's probably worth the reassurance.
He sighs and leans back a bit, nearly overbalances, and straightens up again. Thanatos doesn't get it, and he's honestly not sure how to explain it aside from being blunt. "That's not the point. I know I still have potions and my mana drive and field medicine, but unless it's for someone I can't heal, they'll never be what I turn to first. My magic is part of who I am, and I want it back." He knows there are other ways he can help; that doesn't change what he wants. How does Thanatos of all people not understand this?
But there's still another question Thanatos is insisting on, and he's not going to let up without an answer, is he. "Yes, I have the ingredients, but it's not going to help. It's for magic overuse. I tried it when we got back from Jinnjar, when I was exhausted from anchoring, and it didn't help." It had been worth testing, but at this point he knows.