irrationally: (i don't know what is real)
alice liddell. Ω ([personal profile] irrationally) wrote in [community profile] middleofsomewhere 2021-10-03 06:51 pm (UTC)

Alice can see that it's hard for Guri to put this into words. And how could she blame the other when the same is true for Alice herself? It's hard to come to terms with what happened, harder even still to give it a place, to put it in words.

Especially when the words they used back in those illusions don't feel adequate. But what Guri is saying now - perhaps that sounds better. It's still hard for Alice to believe anyone would think of her in such a way, but in a sense, it's still more realistic.

"You are important to me as well."

They're not words Alice often says, but it feels right to say them now. She doesn't want Guri to be the only one having to express vulnerability here. It wouldn't be fair. Even though forcing out these words makes Alice's voice sound so much different from how steady it usually is. Instead she sounds a bit weaker - or perhaps just more vulnerable in her openness.

"I.. do not think that it is necessarily important to put any other label on it." Because it feels weird. Just thinking back on the word 'girlfriends' feels weird, and not just because Guri is attached to the memory. It's just the thought of the concept itself that feels weird to Alice. Love always feels so weird. 'Friends' sounds kind of tacky.

Isn't this just possible? Two people who are important to each other. It feels neater.

"After all, I would not be sticking besides you like this right now if it wasn't for the fact that I enjoy your company and want you to be alright as well."

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