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Jema'grethy: Memory Cave

Passengers see a vision, an instance of someone's life, before just as suddenly - they find themselves inside a cave. It is light, a strange moss glowing on the walls and ceiling illuminates the cave nicely, and it is large enough for them to pace around in without trouble.

They're not alone. In the cave with them is another voidtrecker; maybe someone they know well, or maybe someone they've only seen in the aisles of the train. But they are together in this cave, and they will come to find out that it was one of their memories that the other witnessed. And them, one of yours.

The cave has no exit, at least not yet. They know that it will, eventually. When the time is right.

But for that time to come, they first must talk...

(OOC: Memories can be written either in this post or over here)

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Yes. Many things do no be going as planned. [She tilted her head.]

Did you be thinking he did be loving you? Before that?

[Xie'er looked genuienly lost at her question.]

I don't know. Everything I've seen seems to show he simply used people even those he claimed to care about.

Perhaps he did only be pretending. Or he did be thinking other things did be being more important?

I would like to think that. I've given him several chances to prove himself. But each chance said otherwise.

Did you ever wish to have a father and mother that loved you?

I did no be thinking about it before... [She wrinkled her nose and sighed.

It was true. Until she had come to the train she hadn't given thought to such things.]

[He raised an eyebrow a little surprised by her statement, but then he supposed some family didn't matter. Especially if they didn't know what one was like.]

I suppose you were too busy with what you were being trained for and had a purpose then? And you had at least a sister which is still family.

I grew up on the streets before Yufi took me in. I barely knew my own mother before someone killed her and I didn't know my father. He was the closest thing I had to a parental figure.

Yes, we did be being busy with our training and I did no really be knowing about family and all that. [She shook her hand, not important.

But he was right, she had had her sister. Her chest hurt in that stupid way, even just seeing her in the memories... it was a lot.

But he had grown up on the streets, she had ran with street brats a lot when she was younger and it made sense, they were often recruited, taken in in exchange for work thieving and other tasks. ]

You did be believing you could be making him your father... You did be wanting to be believing it.

[He gave a nod in understanding.]

You at least had a purpose at a younger age. I didn't gain purpose till I met Yifu. I still want to believe he does see me as his son.

[OOC: I realized I was spelling Yifu wrong in my earlier tags. It's too late to adjust, but now I have the correct spelling will proceed foreward with it. I apologize for not catching this sooner and double checking.]

Yes. I did be having a purpose all my life. [Until now. Until this train where her life had got infinitely more complicated.]

Will you be going back to him though? When we do no longer be being on this train?

....I probably will. He kind of needs me now. He can't do anything on his own now.

[He grimaced a little at the admittance. It was somewhat part of his doing to why he was now dependant on him.]

[She tilted her head.] Why can he no be doing anything?

Long story short, the sects eventually learned Yifu was behind alot of the problems that happened and the deaths to some of their people. They confronted him about it. Yifu lost in a fight and his miradians were crushed so he was incaple of walking or fighting for that matter. I stopped it so they didn't kill him out right. Yet, I wasn't good either. I made it so he couldn't talk anymore. I didn't want him to still have power through his words. He thought I was going to kill him and had accepted that defeat, but was surprised to learn I didn't. So now he is totally dependent on me. Especially since he lost all of his allies.

[Xie'er massaged his forehead with the tips of his fingers, feeling a headache coming on from admitting what happened and just having to relive the time all over again.]

She tilted her head. "So you did be turning on him in the end." Because he hadn't given him what he wanted, hadn't seen him as a son.

And all his allies had turned on him. It happened, when people were not careful. And this Yifu seemed to be very careless indeed.

"So you do be needing to be doing everything for him now?"

How was that a good thing?

"He still has people to wait on him and help him, but his list of allies is extremely thin once his master mind plan was revealed and what he had done all this time. For me...I saw it was a chance to prove him wrong of his view of me and what I was truely capable of.

He was so bent on trying to control me and not realizing that so much of what I did was through loyalty alone. I think somewhere along the line he got too controlling and afraid things would go wrong if he didn't take care of it."

Xie'er tried to explain things as best he could. It was difficult as he was still trying to process everything himself.

She nodded, frowning. He had played his hand and now he had too allies, just when he needed the most help. He had pushed away those loyal to him and tried to control them too hard.

His own fault, his own flaws.

"I had wanted us to succeed together. But in the end, he only cared about himself and his needs. I went down that dark path for nothing.

You at least, seemed to have a second chance here not having to do that kind of work." Xie'er stated.

"I'll understand after this if you choose to not want to interact with me. But, I'm glad you at least were the one to learn my dark secrets. Verses some of the other people."

"It do no be being the work that do be being the problem." She spoke before she caught herself. But honestly it's not a big problem. He is like her. He will understand.

"Yes it do be being good that I did be finding out, rather than some of the stupid people here."

People who would judge him and hate him for it.

Xie'er looked up and titled his head, confused by the statement. "What do you think is the actual problem then if it's not doing all those tasks?"

He did give a nod of appreciation toward her later statement. "I'm glad that you can understand what I did and not judge me harshly for my actions."

"That you did be trusting him. That you did be thinking he did be caring." That was the problem.

Not the tasks. They were just tasks. He did them for a man, she did similar for a god. But she thought...

"It would no be mattering what tasks you did be doing, if he did be making you be doing things that people do be finding good. You would still be doing it for nothing, because what you wanted... Was for him to be caring."

And he didn't. That was the problem.

Xie'er frowned and buried his face in his hands trying to keep his own emotions in check and recollect his thoughts. What LO said was true. It was just hard to actually hear it being said.

"If you were to have met him, you would have falling for his words too. He's very skillful on knowing what to say and what to do to get you to do what he wanted. I was such a fool."

Were his eyes leaking? She hoped not. She had no idea how to navigate this situation. It was too weird.

"You did maybe be being a fool but if he did be being so good at words then it probably did no all be being your fault."

She can understand feeling stupid though.

He hated being so emotional. It made him look weak and stark contrast from being cold hearted assassin. He used the back of his hands to wipe away traces of tears that had fallen before he got himself back under control. He was more mad with himself for being used all this time and to gain nothing from it.

"It was my fault for giving him multiiple chances. I suppose I can ue the time here to try and start over. Only I don't know what to really do now." Xie'er admitted. He avoided eye contact for the moment, embarrassed by his open display from earlier.

His eyes were leaking. She sighed. This was too common, she was used to it. But still she would expect more of someone who was an assassin.

"You could be starting over. No one do be knowing you here so you can be being whoever you do be wanting." Probably. She tilted her head. "So you can be doing whatever you do be wanting to be doing."

As hard as that was to choose.

"Is that what you're doing now?" Xie'er asked. He supposed he could learn more on healing and seeing what training there was that could be offered. It could be a way to help repent for what he's done in the past.

"I know alot about healing and would like to be able to use those skills here." He stated after a while. He didn't have a whole lot of purpose now. It had always been to serve Yifu and now he had no goal in mind.

"I do be guessing so." Starting over, changing. Becoming who she wanted. Though it was stupid and difficult and she didn't really know what she was doing.

"We do always be needing healing. People do be getting hurt a lot."

She sighed. "You would rather be doing that? Healing and no killing?"

She's almost disappointed.

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