middleofsomewhere | Memory Cave

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Memory Cave

After the passengers see a glimpse of a life that is not their own they appear in a cave. It is light, a strange moss glowing on the walls and ceiling illuminates the cave nicely and it is large enough for them to pace around in without trouble.

They are not alone. In the cave with them is another voidtrecker. Maybe someone they know well, maybe someone they have only seen in the aisles of the train. But they are together in this cave together.

The cave has no exit, at least not yet. They know that it will, eventually. When the time is right.

But for that time to come, they first must talk...

(OOC: For reference: memories!)

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"Um." He was not sure what he was expecting but that... Wasn't it. But he had said he would answer her questions and if that is her question...

He is silent for a moment, he doesn't have the context for her question. But a friend who trusted someone who used to be horrible to you, who had changed and hated someone who was nice when no one else had been...

"I guess..." It's hard, he doesn't have many friends. But he knows people... "I believe people can really change... But that doesn't change the fact you feel hurt by that person, the one who was horrible to you and I guess... You can accept that they changed and that your friend trusts them, but you don't need to..."

Right? He's a kirin, forgiveness is the first instinct of his kind. But he has lived his whole life around humans, he knows cruelty and he knows how it is to be hurt, to have to be around those who hurt him.

"And I guess... Sorry I don't know why your friend would hate a person who is nice to you. Are they? Sorry are they nice to you but hurt your friend? Or... Used to be... Did they change too? For the worse?"

Because people did change, or the way they treated someone did. But it was hard to feel anger at someone, even if they hurt you. If they had once been a friend.

She was quiet for a while, considering all of that intensely. Axel wanted her to trust Saïx's Somebody, Isa, didn't he? She... she was conflicted. He had lots of chances to hurt her at the school and didn't, and could even see her face, which he never could before. But would she ever stop feeling that first moment of fear when he walked into a room? Could she ever be fully sure he wouldn't try and destroy or use her again? And what if he lost his heart again? Would things just go back to the way they had been? What would Axel do then? What would he want her to do?

As for the other...

"Axel says that they were part of the plan to use us all, and Axel is right about most things but... he was one of the few who could see my face. He used to call me Poppet, and Roxas Kiddo and he didn't sound mean or sneering when he said it, like Laraxene and the others could sound when talking to us." And sure he had fought her once, but so had Axel. So had Roxas, though in that case things had been... not at all typical. At all. She didn't think Roxas would ever attack her again. He hadn't wanted to fight her in the first place. And Axel said he understood things better now, and that he probably wouldn't again. Would she fight Xigbar again if he showed up? What was he like with a heart? "I just don't know... and I don't want to hurt Axel by asking him even though he told me to trust him to be strong enough not to be hurt..." He had said it, Saïx's somebody had said it, Roxas had said it. But was it really so bad... Not to want to hurt her friend?

The weeks she had spent in bed after that whole mess had helped her understand or at least come to partial terms with a lot, but it hadn't just magically solved everything. And doubts were like those small heartless that there always seemed to be more of. No matter how many times she destroyed them, they kept coming back....

"Ah." He looked down, "So he was someone you trusted and liked... Then he betrayed you? Or rather..." He was quiet for a moment, "He was always planning to hurt you. But you didn't know."

He was silent for another long time, trying to place her words, with the words from her memories, into some sort of way that made it make sense. It didn't really. But she was from a very different place and he got the feeling that... She didn't really understand things herself. Those memories... They felt similar to some of his own, on earth, keeping himself apart. Not ever fitting in and therefore not really knowing... Much.

"If he hurt you... Then it is up to you if you forgive him. That's a choice you can make..."

"Trust?" She was still not sure she understood trust as a concept. She also wasn't sure if they were talking now about Saïx or Xigbar. "Forgive....?"

"Yes. You... You thought they were your friend. They were nice to you. Then they hurt you."

He's trying to keep his words simple, not wanting to confuse her more.

"Forgive is... If someone hurts you or someone you love you might want to... be angry. But you can... accept that it happened and wish no harm on that person. That is to forgive."

She gave a small shrug. "I am used to being hurt."

"I know..." His voice was soft. "But you shouldn't be."

No one should be hurt, it makes him sad that she had been hurt like this. He smiled, "Is your chest feeling better?"

She looked at him confused. "Why not?"

As for his question... she wasn't sure how to answer that, really... So she didn't.

"Because. No one should be hurt." He says it as fact. It is fact. Nobody should be hurt. No matter who they were, what they had done or what others thought of them.

He smiled sadly at her again, "You have a good friend in Lea."

The first part confused her, but the second part she understood so she nodded. "He and Roxas are my best friends," she said with a nod. She knew that was true, because Axel had said so.

"I'm glad." He smiles at her, "I'm glad you have such good friends."

He hadn't known Roxas, in the small amount of time he had been on the train. But he knew Lea, not well but... He seemed nice.

There's still a lot of information echoing around his mind, all the things he heard and learned. But he doesn't question her, doesn't want to pry more than he has.

She gave a small nod, not knowing what else to say.

He fell silent, looking down at his hands, unsure of how to help her further.

"Um... Sorry... Do you have any more questions?"

After all, they were in this cave, it's not like there is much more for them to do but talk.

"What is a car tune? He said it had nothing to do with cars, and I should watch them," the he being Crowley this time, though she didn't realize she needed to clarify that she had jumped people. "But I thought tunes had to do with music? And Axel said that he was probably making sun of me, which meant he expected to be laughing but that I wouldn't also find it funny, but that it is hard to tell when someone is sharing a joke or making fun of you. I thought fun was supposed to be good...?"

"Car tunes..." Nothing to do with cars... Should watch them. He's a little bit confused, struggling to follow her thread of conversation but he nodded.

"A cartoon?" Because that was something you could watch and had nothing to do with cars.

"Um. They are drawings. But they move, it's just pretend but... It is a way of telling stories. They have nothing to do with cars or music really. Have you been in the cinema car on the train?"

"Drawings that... move?" she was so confused.

She shook her head to his question though. "Should I put that on the list?"

"When we get back to the train I can show you if you want." He smiled softly, "We can watch a cartoon together."

He hadn't watched many things in the cinema car himself. But Tidus and Lord Gyousou had been watching an anime about Blitzball. So he knows there are cartoon to choose from.

She gave a small shrug. How was she supposed to know if she wanted to?

He looked down again, falling into silence himself. He hoped she hadn't minded... He didn't want to force his company on her. He guessed he could just show her the cinema, let her watch the cartoons with Lea.

She was not the sort who felt the need to add words to silence, so she stayed quiet herself.

The silence drew on, the cave glowing around them. Taiki looked around again, no exit was apparant. He had no idea how they were here or how they should get out.

But that feeling is still there, the door would open when the time is right. There was something they needed to do here and all there was to do was talk... Even if talking is not something easy for either of them.

"Um... The memories I saw. You went to school?"

It had not been like his own school, but he recognised it as such.

She blinked, then nodded. "I thought I had failed, because I woke up on the way to this weird place. My magic didn't work and they said we had to go to school or our powers would destroy us." She shrugged. "I thought I still needed to die so..."

"Oh." He nodded, "So you thought... You hadn't succeeded in being forgotten."

Clearly she hadn't died. Or maybe... Who knew. The worlds were strange places after all. But she had thought she had failed. "That must have been hard for you, to adjust I mean."

She shrugged a bit. "I kept trying." she said it as though she was trying to assure him she didn't slack off. Or... trying to convince herself of the same.

The words made him sad, made sadness stab through him. She had kept trying... to be forgotten. To avoid those who might know her.

"But it was alright... Lea remembered you and it was alright."

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